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Life's Simple Fears by ~Only-Bell:iconOnly-Bell:



Afraid of what they will say
Afraid of being misunderstood
Afraid of folding your hands to pray
Afraid of your childhood

Afraid of having nothing to lose
Afraid of needing to cry
Afraid of having to choose
Afraid of saying goodbye

Afraid of being conceded
Afraid of someone seeing you crawl
Afraid of being needed
Afraid of wanting to fall

Afraid of becoming famous
Afraid of dieing unknown
Afraid of the nights being dreamless
Afraid of being alone
©2004-2009 ~Only-Bell
:icononly-bell:

Author's Comments

I wrote this over the summer... lots of thinking... confusion. I especially like the two main contradictions (first two lines of last two stanzas).

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:iconmysterybehindthemask:
wow..I really enjoy some of these lines, because at some point in my life I've felt nearly every one. This is really well done, and I'm so impressed with your gallery! Keep them coming. :hug: Krystal.
:iconbroken-and-weary:
I have really liked this since the first day you showed me it on your binder.. alot of these lines i have felt or feel now..well i must i have felt all of these and still do...
i wouldent mind dieing unknown though... no one would cry and then their would be nothing to miss besides the bowx or whatever they put me in...
sorry...i know when i say stuff like that it dissapoints you...i have been trying to get better though and i will try harder k.......i really truly enjoy this...
-Alex-
big :hug:
I truly + deeply love you!
never forget that......
:icononly-bell:
It doesn't dissapoint me when you say things like that, just saddens me. You have never dissapointed me. It just makes me sad because I feel like you don't understand how much I (and many others) care about you. Believe me, a lot of people would cry... not just me. You have done SO much for SO many people, and I know you see that. You have saved some lives and through that, yours was saved also.
I have already told Krystal this, but some of those lines were written with you in mind... even the lines I wrote for you were things I had felt also.
I love you Alex... with all my heart. You are my first love, you taught me to love. I can't immagine where I'd be today if I hadn't decided to "beat up your brother"... lol.
With all my love, Shannon

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"If all you look for is fault, you won't be disappointed." -My Mom <3
:iconbroken-and-weary:
well thats still no good i hate making you sda dear....I always what to be able to always put a smile on your face.....I just don't like me....i never have...
well I don't want anyone to cry if it ever does happen i wuld feel better if everyone smiled and were happy to see me go...Ya i have saved a few lives but i have messed up so many others on the way....my own....and as i always say yours probably as well.... It will never be on purpose though...
sorry for being so rude on and off the nus when you told me that you couldent go snowboarding...i was being a butthead.....just so much stress lately that you telling me that just mad me dissapointed...but we have other times to go snowboarding ...maybe spring break we can go on a road trip...i think that would be fun...mabe to the grand canyon or something..hehe it would be some much fun...hope fully you wont get or be tired of me by then...or during the trip...

I am so happy i asked you to comeover and beat up my brother...i don't think i would be here if it wasent for you..trully and deeply hunnie you have made me find love again...i use to be against saying it i have always thought people abused it and never really ment it... and i just want you to know when i say it i say it with all my heart.....truly and deeply..... so happy we found each other... you have made so much better ...i cant even explain how much....thank you for everything sweetheart.....i can't wait tell i get home ...i miss you...hehe ...ya sorry for being a little kid...
well hunnie i will try and get ahold of you on my way home on the train (24th) ...well hehe you probably wont see this tell then ...or you will read this later today... sorry for not being in bed ...i got some sleep on the bus...(its 2:11 AM) ya i will try and be better at sleeping....cause i know it worries you....

you look so sad in your new photo hunnie.... well the couple month old photo of you ...i hate seeing you sad...however half the time i am the one that makes you sad or dissapointed...gosh I just want to make you happy.....

well this has gotten really long so i think i am going to let you go ok...talk to you later hunnie...
hope you have a blast skiing ....be safe...
sweet dreams,good nights, the most beautiful mornings that only our eyes and hearts can capture....
(I Love you shannon..always and forever ..trully and deeply...):hug:
-Alex Tanner Acree-
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Nope, not getting tired of you. Nope, you won't screw me up. I don't let others screw me up... any screwing up I experience is all my own doing.
We got back earlier then I thought we would. Apparantly my mom lied to us when she said the 24th...lol, oh well. She was confused also. We had an awesome time! No broken bones. No concussions (or however you spell it).
Alex, I hope you are having an awesomely relaxing time with your family and that you have a safe trip home! Can't wait to see you then.
I am glad to hear that you take the word love seriously also. That is why you are the only person I have ever said that too, because I also think it is far too overused. I actually mean with all my heart when I say it to you, every time. I have never felt that way with anyone else before. Be proud Alex Acree! And remember that I love you.
:jarklarge: Hee heee, it was made for us! Oh, I crack myself up...
I will talk to you soon, enjoy yourself (you are good company), have a blast, laugh a lot.
I love you, Shannon

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"If all you look for is fault, you won't be disappointed." -My Mom <3
:icononly-bell:
:picknose: oops, I meant to send this picture, not the alien, lol

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"If all you look for is fault, you won't be disappointed." -My Mom <3
:iconbroken-and-weary:
hehe yay you're back..hehe your mom lied thats not nice.. however i am happy you're back early so now i know you're safe ...hehe no broken bones or concussions ..(i dont know how to spell it either) ....so happy to here that you had fun and you're safe....
ya sorry to say dear you probably will get tired of me...and or everytime i say stuff like that..hehe ya...
and yes i think i have already screwed you up...picking your nose and all the fun stuff hehe...yay ....:picknose: hehe that was made for us ...hehe i like the alien you put up first as well... i miss you alot... however ...getting messages from you has made my day dear....hehe ya i think i may be getting to eugene around 5:00 the 24th ..knock on wood .. ya we never get home one time hehe ...the train is always late...but you know its fun....you will have to come up here with me sometime and meet my dad and older brothers..hehe roadtrip..but we would have to ride the train as well cause its really relaxing ...
hehe thank you dear i am haveing a really good time up here and i get to experiance all the stuff i have missed or forgot..hehe like my dads cooking hehe i love it ..and missed it alot...hehe rideing around in their new vans ..one looks like shagies van and the other one is blue only two seats ..hehe however we put the couch in the back ...hehe its so fun ...
I am truly happy that you take the word love seriously aswell... i am so happy that i invited you over to beat up ethan...to bad i didnt invite you over earlier ...but you know i thought and still think you can do better....
I am truly and deeply happy that i have you... I am truly honored and proud to be the first one that you have said that to...i used to not want people to say that to me and wouldent let them ...like krystal and other friend would say they loved me and i would just say no you dont...you cant...and as i still say t...theirs nothing to love about me ...but i know you can come up with more then 100 reasons .....but we both have our own oppinions about me...
I have said i love you to people before ..but thats like krystal and kevin hehe ...or my brothers and dad ...people like that...but i always means it with all my heart...well whatever heart is their ......
and Shannon I have said i love you with all my heart everytime ...i truly mean it.. forever and always ..truly and deeply!
Never forget that kay.....
I will try and call you tommorow if you dont mind ...I get free long distance so you dont have to worry about that....
:sorry this is so long ...i will try and make all my comments shorter ...
well dear i better get to bed cause its about 4:10 and i have to finish christmas shoping tommorow .....
Sweet dreams Love....good nights.... and the most beautiful morning that only our eyes and hearts can capture....
later days hunnie :smooch:
I love you shannon ... when i get home can i pick your nose :picknose: hehe ... hehe spank me :spank: sorry i couldent help it and dear you crackme up as well
I love you with all my heart...
-Alex Tanner Acree- :hug:
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:blushes: hehe do you not like it when i pick your nose ...hehe you should be gald i dont pick your nose :picknose: and eat it :chew: ...that would be really interesting :yum: ..hmmm hehe but then i would think about what i did and be worried what you thought of happend and wouldent know how to act ...wich hapens alot :worry:
thank you for all the comments hunnie...
I love you truly and deeply ...you have helped me so much ...I can't even explain how much ..hehe just alot ...more and more everyday...
-ALex-
oh oh :strip: ..hehe
:icononly-bell:
Hey Sweetie, Happy Valentines Day! ... wow... this is long... OH WELL!

100 reasons:

1. Trustworthy
2. Thoughtful
3. Helpful
4. Caring
5. Organized (in most cases…)
6. Respectful of others
7. Respectful of other’s property
8. Trusting
9. Truthful
10. Respectable
11. Amazing hugger
12. Great kisser*
14. Help to keep house clean… even without being asked
15. Mature
16. Often the voice of reason
17. Help to resolve problems
18. Dislike others putting themselves down
19. Beautiful!
20. Soft voice
21. Encouraging words
22. You put up with me!
23. Don’t mind my nagging…
24. Love the rain… just like me
25. Smooth skin
26. Comforting touch
27. Always willing to offer advice
28. Gorgeous green eyes
29. Smell sooo good!
30. Open-minded about other people
31. Open-minded about other religions
32. Open-minded about other ways of life
33. Environmentally conscious
34. Work for what you want
35. Beginning to look forward to your future
36. Starting to do things to better that future
37. Stopped use of certain things…
38. Hot Arms!
39. Would do anything for a friend in need
40. Just touching your hand sends a shock through my entire being
41. Wonderful artist
42. Creative
43. Great musician
44. Talented photographer
45. Artistic eye for detail
46. Extremely intelligent… no matter what you try to convince yourself and others of.
47. Lovely bassist
48. …modest… to extreme…?
49. Give very relaxing back massages
50. Not selfish
51. Comfy cutteler
52. Great sleeping partner
53. Cute snoring
54. Long dark eyelashes
55. Pretty singing voice
56. You understand me… even when I don’t
57. Love your brothers
58. Care about your mom
59. Extremely UN-Lazy (most of the time)
60. Willing to try almost anything
61. Good taste in movies
62. Amazing how much you look up to your dad
63. Very giving
64. Give great pep-talks
65. Help me to get things done
66. Teach me to see the beauty in people
67. Enjoy sharing
68. Are a perfectionist
69. Would never hurt an animal
70. Understand my fears, share many of them
71. Keep your brothers “in line”
72. Enjoy a good “wrestle”
73. Our hands fit together perfectly
74. Love me even when I blubber
75. Have more patience then most people I know
76. Are just as stubborn as me
77. Tell me my tears are beautiful
78. Will do a wonderful job with my senior pictures
79. …deep down see the beauty in your own talent…?
80. Always try to make me happy
81. Great at making me laugh
82. Help me get my mind off all of the crap in the world
83. Let me cry on your shoulder… thank you Alex.
84. Are willing to give everything a shot
85. Very aware of other’s feelings
86. Worry about your friends and how you can help them
87. Beautiful hands
88. Lovely nostrils (even flared!)
89. Not a quitter
90. Keep me from being a quitter
91. Will call Ken Werner…?
92. Garlic!
93. Lovely patch
94. Are very hygienic
95. Pay attention to the Princess of Oz
96. Go for walks with me
97. Make me feel beautiful
98. Make me feel incredibly lucky
99. Are extremely blessed…
100. And we love each other to no end

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"If all you look for is fault, you won't be disappointed." -My Mom <3

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